Just wishing a merry Christmas to everyone out there!! No matter how you celebrate it, be happy.
Best wishes this Christmas season!!
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Monday, December 21, 2009
My 4 part rant on how I am invisible.
First off, my sisters (Carolynn ans Anngela) are mad at me because I got really mad at them for drinking alot of coca-cola (mom says we aren't aloud) at the movies. My cousin (who is also mad at me and was with us) isn't speaking to me, and to make it worse, she is spending the night here. I know this seems like a stupid fight but I really don't want them to end up like my brother, Chris.
Secondly, it seems like all the people I once called friend are drifting away from the church. Juli, my cousin, Chris, Katya (my best friend), Jenni (we used to be best friends), even my little sisters are caring about it less and less. Chris hasn't been to church in who knows how long and now he is basically a 19 year old bum on the streets of toronto, most likely staying at friend's houses. He keeps saying he's changed but it only lasts until he does something again. He has Bipolar and refuses to take meds. So this is alway the excuse given when he does something.
Third, my so called sweet 16 sucked. My aunt died of breast cancer that morning and only 3 people came to my party (none of them have talked to me in a long while). Jenni (one of the 3 who showed up) was texting more then talking.
Forth, Juli has always been better at everything and I feel like I have always lived in her shadow. Every time I feel like I am peeking out, her shadow just grows. It's always "Wow, juli is so talented at art" or "Juli is so great with kids" or " juli is the coolest" or "Yay, juli got a 90% in math" and I just hate it. No matter how good I am at something, she is either better or congratulated. For example, I almost always go to church, but when juli goes, everyone wants to sit with her. And now, even though she has been going for a few weeks now, she still gets all the attention.
I feel like I might as well be silent and invisible.
Secondly, it seems like all the people I once called friend are drifting away from the church. Juli, my cousin, Chris, Katya (my best friend), Jenni (we used to be best friends), even my little sisters are caring about it less and less. Chris hasn't been to church in who knows how long and now he is basically a 19 year old bum on the streets of toronto, most likely staying at friend's houses. He keeps saying he's changed but it only lasts until he does something again. He has Bipolar and refuses to take meds. So this is alway the excuse given when he does something.
Third, my so called sweet 16 sucked. My aunt died of breast cancer that morning and only 3 people came to my party (none of them have talked to me in a long while). Jenni (one of the 3 who showed up) was texting more then talking.
Forth, Juli has always been better at everything and I feel like I have always lived in her shadow. Every time I feel like I am peeking out, her shadow just grows. It's always "Wow, juli is so talented at art" or "Juli is so great with kids" or " juli is the coolest" or "Yay, juli got a 90% in math" and I just hate it. No matter how good I am at something, she is either better or congratulated. For example, I almost always go to church, but when juli goes, everyone wants to sit with her. And now, even though she has been going for a few weeks now, she still gets all the attention.
I feel like I might as well be silent and invisible.
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